Have you ever?

Have you ever

Feeling lost, but not because you don't know the direction

You know exactly where to go

But time doesn't allow you to do things right

Have you ever

Care so much about people

But you need to disappoint

Not because they are wrong

They are just not on the right timing

Have you ever

In a big, big battle

Where you, who are super confident with yourself for your whole life

Suddenly feeling small

A small speck of dust within the universe

Have you ever

In a doom loop

Where you always doesn't have time

Because everything is just too fast

Too fast, that it makes you feel dizzy

Until you need a painkiller to be asleep at night

Not because that you are not sleepy

But you really need to dampen the pain

That can explode your chest at any given moment

Have you ever

Shutting down your sense

Just to be peaceful

In doing wrong things right

Hell even if I can't be right

I don't wanna be that wrong

And I hope no one ever need to go through what i've been through

Jakarta, 24th January 2024

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